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Nimmat Nigeria
Writer. @ University of Abuja
In Psychology 5 min read
The Moment You Stop Fighting
<p><br/></p><p><br/></p><p>There is a moment<br/></p><p>right before sleep</p><p>where your body goes quiet…</p><p>but your mind doesn’t.</p><p><br/></p><p>You’ve felt it.</p><p>That strange stillness.</p><p>That weight on your chest.</p><p><br/></p><p>That awareness that something is… off.</p><p>You try to move.</p><p>You can’t.</p><p>You try to speak.</p><p><br/></p><p>Nothing comes out.</p><p>And fear rises fast.</p><p>Because control is gone.</p><p><br/></p><p>They call it sleep paralysis.</p><p>A glitch.</p><p>A misfire.</p><p>A dream leaking into reality.</p><p><br/></p><p>But what if it isn’t?</p><p>What if that moment</p><p>isn’t your body failing…</p><p>but your awareness</p><p>slipping out of alignment?</p><p><br/></p><p>Because something strange happens<br/></p><p>   </p><p><img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/IMG_4089.jpeg"/><br/></p><p>when you stop fighting.</p><p>Not immediately.</p><p>Not obviously.</p><p><br/></p><p>But slowly… subtly…</p><p>you begin to feel less attached</p><p>to yourself.</p><p>Your body is still there.</p><p>But “you” don’t feel fully inside it anymore.</p><p>You are not asleep.</p><p>You are not awake.</p><p>You are in between.</p><p> </p><p><img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/IMG_4092.jpeg"/><br/></p><p><br/></p><p>And in that space…</p><p>reality doesn’t feel as solid.</p><p>Time stretches.</p><p>Sound distorts.</p><p>Presence appears.</p><p>Not clearly.</p><p>Not visibly.</p><p>But undeniably.</p><p><br/></p><p>And then the question forms</p><p>quiet… but heavy:</p><p>If I’m still here…</p><p>why does it feel like</p><p>I’m somewhere else?</p><p><br/></p><p>Most people don’t stay long enough</p><p>to find out.</p><p>Because fear takes over.</p><p>But what if fear</p><p>is not instinct…</p><p>but interruption?</p><p><br/></p><p>Because every time</p><p>you reach that state</p><p>that stillness where your body is gone</p><p>and your awareness begins to stretch</p><p>something pulls you back.</p><p>Fast. Sudden. Absolute.</p><p>And you call that relief.</p><p><br/></p><p>But think about it.</p><p>Why does your mind fight so hard</p><p>to return to your body…</p><p>if leaving it feels so natural?</p><p><br/></p><p>Why does control feel safe…</p><p>but detachment feels forbidden?</p><p>Maybe the fear isn’t yours.</p><p>Maybe it was taught.</p><p>Conditioned.</p><p>Built into you.</p><p><br/></p><p>A boundary.</p><p>Not to protect your body…</p><p>but to limit your awareness.</p><p><br/></p><p>Because the moment you stop reacting</p><p>when you go quiet instead of panicking</p><p>you notice something unsettling:</p><p>Nothing is actually hurting you.</p><p>No hands.</p><p>No real danger.</p><p>No visible threat.</p><p>Just a presence.</p><p><br/></p><p>A shift.</p><p>A feeling that something is different.</p><p>And that’s when it becomes clear:</p><p>The fear doesn’t come from what’s happening.</p><p>It comes from</p><p>not understanding it.</p><p><br/></p><p>So your mind does what it was designed to do:</p><p>It shuts it down.</p><p>Forces movement.</p><p>Forces wakefulness.</p><p>Forces you back into something familiar.</p><p>Back into your body.</p><p>Back into limits.</p><p>And you accept it.</p><p><br/></p><p>You wake up… relieved.</p><p>But what if that moment</p><p>the exact point where you panic the most</p><p>is the closest you ever get</p><p>to stepping beyond the boundary?</p><p>And every time…</p><p>you turn back?</p><p><br/></p><p>Because there is a point</p><p>past fear.</p><p>Most people never reach it.</p><p>They panic.</p><p>They fight.</p><p>They wake up.</p><p><br/></p><p>But some don’t.</p><p>Some stay still long enough…</p><p>quiet enough…</p><p>detached enough…</p><p>for something to shift completely.</p><p>Not gradually.</p><p>Irreversibly.</p><p><br/></p><p>Because the moment you stop reacting</p><p>truly stop</p><p>you notice something unsettling:</p><p>You are no longer trying</p><p>to move your body.</p><p>And worse…</p><p>you no longer want to.</p><p><br/></p><p>The urgency fades.</p><p>The need to wake disappears.</p><p>And then it happens.</p><p>Not a jolt.</p><p>Not a dream.</p><p><br/></p><p>A separation so smooth</p><p>it doesn’t feel like leaving</p><p>It feels like remembering.</p><p><br/></p><p>Like you were never fully inside</p><p>to begin with.</p><p>You don’t move.</p><p>You don’t travel.</p><p>You simply… exist differently.</p><p>Without weight.</p><p>Without boundaries.</p><p>Without direction.</p><p>And in that state</p><p>one realization begins to form:</p><p>The body was never your home.</p><p><br/></p><p><img src="/media/inline_insight_image/IMG_4095.jpeg"/><br/></p><p>It was a container.</p><p>An anchor.</p><p>A limit placed on something</p><p>that is not meant to be limited.</p><p>And then comes the truth</p><p>people don’t talk about:</p><p>If you stay too long…</p><p>you begin to lose something.</p><p><br/></p><p>Not your mind.</p><p>Not your awareness.</p><p>Your attachment.</p><p>To your name.</p><p>Your identity.</p><p>Your life.</p><p><br/></p><p>They don’t disappear.</p><p>They just stop feeling like you.</p><p>And that is why fear exists.</p><p>Not to protect you from what’s out there</p><p><br/></p><p>But to make sure</p><p>you always come back.</p><p>So you wake up.</p><p>Heart racing.</p><p>Body shaking.</p><p>Grateful it’s over.</p><p><br/></p><p>But something stays with you.</p><p>A quiet knowing.</p><p>That it wasn’t just a dream.</p><p>That you touched something</p><p>you don’t have the language to explain.</p><p>And worse…</p><p>it felt familiar.</p><p><br/></p><p>So now the question is no longer curiosity.</p><p>It’s choice.</p><p>Next time it happens…</p><p>when your body goes still…</p><p>when your mind begins to slip…</p><p>when the fear starts to rise</p><p>Will you fight it again?</p><p>Or will you go far enough…</p><p>to understand why</p><p>you were never meant to stay? </p>
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