I'm tired - by Letters From Delight ⁠♡♡

Guys I'm so tired.I'm so drained right now honestly. My mind is racing, my head is spinning. This has to be the most vulnerable I've ever been to any mental breakdown ( writing publicly).I usually do this in my journal, when moments like this come, but I have my page here, and I could do whatever I want.Ioono but I don't feel myself, I feel so numb. The funny thing is that I just finished praying fervently not too long, and now tears are dripping from my eyes profusely as I write this.I feel like God is upset with me. Not because I sinned or something, but because why do I trust him and still doubt?.I don't want to push further again 😔.I feel like the world should stop moving for me to adjust, but not even in my wildest imagination will that happen.I've talked to God, trust me when I say I trust him, but something just triggered my long pampered pain💔.Everything feels bulky, I want the weight to be cut down a pinch, maybe I'll feel better.No one feels safe enough to talk to, or maybe I don't want to stalk anyone with my problem.Can I just skip to the good part?......like I'm so drained......goshhhhhh 😪🧖🏿.I need a 1 minute stretch hug with someone, assuring me that everything will work out eventually. Because it will I know, but sometimes I forget 💔.I forget that I'm strong.I forget that I'm a Jesus baby.I forget that I'm daddy's girl. I forget that God has helped me this far. I forget my love for academics that I begin to think I made the wrong choice pursuing any career. I forget how loved I am at home. And I forget myself, who I am 😭.This is currently 12: 10pm.....LoL.I don't know how to feel. Hopeful? Yes I am. Calm?, why should I ?, well I am...but my inner heart is burning from unforgotten coals. I can't even find my best friend 💔. I'm just sunk in the middle of the bed while listening to CONTENTED WITH JESUS by kaestrings 😭.Is it okay to breakdown? cuz I have.......I'm freaking "tired" and I mean every alphabet of the word.Fortunately for me I can't commit suicide ❤️💔.Should I switch? Should I sleep? Should I cry?, I'm already crying though.It's like I know what to do, but I don't know how to do it 😮‍💨.....Omoooooooooooooor ×50I could write a book on how I feel rn. I'm kinda scared of the unknown, but I highkey know God gats me. That's a picture of me I'll forever cherish. Because I took it when I was lost, almost committed suicide, broken, in chaos but choose to have peace. Choose to let the sun shone on me 😭❤️. I choose calm over chaos. How brave of me. But I still don't taya sha.Well I just broke down 😭. I don't know why.....do you??. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.Issokay, I trust God anyways😪.Good night Dee⁠♡⁠♡!

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