I Don't Feel Adultish- But Not Really. Am I Supposed To Feel Any Different? Or Is It Just Another Birthday?!

Just because I turned a new age... Sighs. I didn't feel anything different when I turned the age that officially made me an adult, and not this current birthday either. The skies didn't shift. The world kept moving in a circle. I had the same routine as my last birthday, only that this one came with butterflies, fulfilment and no birthday blue's. Oh I forgot, not the same. My last birthday and last before the last was a mess. Turning a new age is one that comes with so many expectations.But for me it's not the expectations from people, because I beat myself up to a good amount - to the constant reminder that I have a goal, I want a better life, and a future lies ahead of me. <img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/Screenshot_20260227-032732.jpg"/> This is the first birthday I seriously planned for and ended up doing absolutely nothing. I had made so many plans, saved inspo's and booked a studio shoot. If my photographer sees this, I probably sent him a dm booking a shoot. I'm sorry for letting you down lol.... I'm just a girl.Especially Ben and Co that I had disturbed constantly to please pull up for my shoot and I ended up not having one at the appointed date. { They'll be much appreciated later though}. Sighs! Anyways I am now a big girl. I am using "big girl" deliberately because that's the line men, especially the once pushing 30, the married ones not doing anything with their life usually throw at me, deceiving young girls like me. " Big girl like you, why do you still take permission from your parents?", " You speak so well, I want to marry an educated wife even if I didn't go to school", " I have a wife but every man needs a side cheek"." See your breast don't you know you are a big girl? ", " you are not a minor- you carry yourself so well". Bruuuuh the struggles.....Thank God I never accepted those little compliments back then. Are those even compliments?? Or threats? Or.... who knows?.By now they would have broken my hymen and label me as one of those cheap women they sly with. Abeg it's not me they will do <a class="tc-blue external-link external-link external-link external-link external-link external-link external-link" href="https://twocents.space/insights/tag/justicefordelight" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#justicefordelight</a># for. Well now I'm officially a big big girl. But my breasts are still small. My ass isn't like Bukola's own- ( the tiktok content creator that just did a BBL) but I'm contented. Infact very much. God at least compensated me with a good ass. We'll figure out the rest as I grow. And sadly I can no longer use "I'm a minor" to chase men away. <img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/Screenshot_20260227-033035.jpg"/>As I said earlier, there was no shoot. So I did some Capcut template edits with the good videos I had. I also posted some good videos of myself. One thing I hate the most is people asking me for my birthday pictures a few days to, or on my birthday and I have nothing for them. But hey!You can wish me and that's enough. You don't necessarily have to post me. I had so many wishes, gifts, cash prizes from friends and families. It's so good to be loved. Except that my elder sister sent me this. {I screamed} I wish I could give her a hug but we are countries apart. <img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/Screenshot_20260227-034340.jpg"/>And now I can't wait to get home. I'm still in school. I'm done with exams though... Just some snikey pickey keeping me back. {If Ben reads this he'd laugh at me} 😭 Let's come back to this quickly. <img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/Screenshot_20260227-025852.jpg"/>And for the photos? Ben and Alex shot their shot.Oh how I'm grateful to have these ones in my life. If you both are seeing this. I love youuuuuu!! They showed up for me and took me good photos<img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/Screenshot_20260227-033442.jpg"/> I don't know what this write up is about but let's do something fun. If you have my contact on WhatsApp and view my status regularly, you should know this about me. But I am here saying it again because I can. Get to know me. 1: I am a feminist: "Ahh so you hate men?"... Well I have no words for you because those are words from an illiterate. If I'm not a feminist, what else should I be? A dog? ... Whenever people hear this from me, they automatically assume I don't fancy men. But I have an amazing father, I have good male friends and I have a brother. Feminism is a culture created to eradicate an ideology that was birthed and nurtured by patriarchy. Feminism is saying you should respect roles without ranking them. Abeg I'm not here to educate you, go and read for yourself. 😭 2: I love books: If you ever want to gift me anything, please buy me a book. My current book desire is titled " 11 letters I wrote but never sent" by Moh Sherrif. I think the hard copy is 10k, and the soft copy is 6k. I love African fiction. If you don't know where to buy, please just google "book shops in Abuja" and pick, one , two, hundred books for me. Thank you.<img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/Screenshot_20260227-032959.jpg"/> 3: I am a lover girl. { Once again, Ben will smile at this}. Dude is the only person that knows that I am a drenched lover girl. I have never been in a relationship. Like I've never dated anyone.... Out of choice though. I just love -love a little too much. Like, so...you are mine and I am yours? 😩 Jezzz pour me water. 😔❤️I can't wait to have my own man and love him to stupor. I can't wait to be loved, to be seen and heard by the one who sees all my flaws but chooses me. I can't wait to play pranks with my man. I can't wait to have quite movie nights under a blanket - cozy room-popcorn - my head on my mans chest..Chimooo i still have legal method course to offer next semester. I am yet to fully grasp Islamic/sharia law. 😭Chaiiii this thing called love is sweet Sha. I'm patient, I have self control. I can't be studying law and studying love at the same time. Heaven is the goal. 😌🤝 4: I love women: Like, I love women so much. Women are God's imprint. They are proof that God exists. The gender, the group, all of them. Especially the ones with big BUMBUM, chaii body is teaaaaa!. What a marvelous sight to behold. If I got a penny for how many times I admire women with big bumbum, I would have my dream phone by now. The once with lethal face cards.<img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/Screenshot_20260227-033959.jpg"/>"Are you a lesbian "? Ma ko ba mi ooabeg no put me for talk. I like Mannnnnn oooooo. I like romance, I like the concept of kissing and sexing with my man... ejorrr. By the way I am from an African home and a child of God, saved by grace. I'm not ready to be pushed out. But if you are a bad woman, a backstabber, liar, wicked woman - please I don't like you. One of the sole reasons I study law is to fight for the right of women that deserves justice. The world is cruel to women and it aches me. Now the things I hate.I hate situationships : I think it's very important to experience one once in a lifetime for a brain reset. Chaiiii I healed from a situationship for 6 months. One situationship can damage your life permanently. Please runnnn ooooo. Define your relationships with people and don't add extra where not needed. 2: I hate house chores and cooking. I can do them perfectly, it just depends on my mood. 3: I hate Paw paw: it was an overnight something. I ate once , it scratched my throat, and now I dislike it and have not had it in many months now.4: I hate being deprived of attention. The one I deserve.5: I hate Rapist.6: I hate the Nigerian government.7: I hate Agricultural Law.... small. 8; I hate Macaroni. 9: I hate classism10: I hate Nigeria's election process. So that is it for that. Before this new age, I had achieved a lot of things in the previous age. I ended that age fulfilled, and I hope this one is only better. Cheers to a new age. The one that opens a new and leaves the old behind. This new age means I need to take responsibilities more serious. Own up to mistakes and thread with caution. *******************************************"" Also, there's someone that always says I'm short, but I believe I'm not. He's just short sighted. (He'll see this).<img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/Screenshot_20260227-033657.jpg"/>If you have read to this extent. I assume... - You love me and you found this interesting. I love you too.- You are jobless right now and just reading to pass time.- You listened and you judged. Whichever one you are, fine. Thank you very much. Financially I'm a poor baiday girl, so you can tip me. Saving this memories and write ups for my future husband and kids to read. So after reading, byee, I keep the rest for my unknown man. Just because I love this picture.<img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/Screenshot_20260227-032816.jpg"/>Ochim.Happy belated birthday to me.

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