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Writer. @ University of Abuja
You Didn’t Leave… You Just Stopped Choosing Me
<p><br/></p><p>I keep trying to remember the last time</p><p>this felt like love</p><p>and not something I was surviving.</p><p>Because that’s what it became in the end.</p><p>Not us.</p><p>Not warmth.</p><p>Not safety.</p><p>Just something I had to endure</p><p>while pretending it still meant everything.</p><p>You didn’t leave.</p><p>And somehow, that made it worse.</p><p>Because you stayed…</p><p>but you weren’t there.</p><p>You spoke to me</p><p>but not with me.</p><p>You held me</p><p>but it never felt like you were holding on.</p><p>And I kept loving you anyway.</p><p>God… I kept loving you</p><p>in ways that started to destroy me.</p><p>I loved you when it felt one-sided.</p><p>I loved you when it felt forced.</p><p>I loved you when I could feel you slowly</p><p>becoming someone who didn’t need me anymore.</p><p>Do you know what that does to a person?</p><p>To stand right in front of someone</p><p>and feel invisible?</p><p>To say “I love you”</p><p>and hear it come back… empty?</p><p>I started questioning everything.</p><p>Was I too much?</p><p>Not enough?</p><p>Too loud?</p><p>Too quiet?</p><p>Or was I just loving someone</p><p>who had already let me go</p><p>and didn’t know how to say it?</p><p>Because that’s what it felt like.</p><p>Like you had already left…</p><p>and your body just hadn’t caught up yet.</p><p>We didn’t break in one moment.</p><p>We broke in silence.</p><p>In late replies.</p><p>In forced conversations.</p><p>In the way your eyes stopped searching for mine</p><p>like I wasn’t home anymore.</p><p>And I swear I tried.</p><p>I tried so hard it hurt.</p><p>I bent parts of myself</p><p>I didn’t even know could bend.</p><p>I became smaller, quieter, easier…</p><p>just so you would stay.</p><p>But you were already gone.</p><p>And the worst part?</p><p>You never said it.</p><p>You never looked at me</p><p>and told me you didn’t love me anymore.</p><p>You just let me figure it out</p><p>piece by piece</p><p>until there was nothing left of me</p><p>that didn’t ache.</p><p>So now here we are.</p><p>Not together.</p><p>Not completely apart.</p><p>Just… separated.</p><p>Like something came between us</p><p>and decided we were no longer allowed</p><p>to exist in the same place.</p><p>And I wish I could hate you.</p><p>I really do.</p><p>It would be easier</p><p>if you had hurt me loudly.</p><p>If you had done something</p><p>I could point at and say</p><p>“that’s where it ended.”</p><p>But you didn’t.</p><p>You just stopped choosing me.</p><p>And somehow…</p><p>that hurt more</p><p>than anything else ever could.</p><p>Because I would have walked through anything for you.</p><p>Pain.</p><p>Distance.</p><p>Even hell itself.</p><p>But you?</p><p>You couldn’t even stay.</p><p>And now I’m left standing here</p><p>on my side of something that used to be ours</p><p>trying to understand</p><p>how something that felt so real</p><p>ended up feeling like nothing at all.</p>
You Didn’t Leave… You Just Stopped Choosing Me
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