Eyes Lies 👀💔 - by Keeyra Writes✍🏽

I Mistook Attention for Affection. This life no balance, boy wey I like no like me. 🥺⠀Yep, that’s me.⠀ You are probably wondering how I ended up in this situation.⠀Anyways, I am not so good with words. I hope you can read eyes.⠀It was a late Saturday evening.⠀“You really think love is a game?” he asked.⠀Yes!I loved so hard that I thought it came with rules.⠀ I give my heart, you get to follow the lead.⠀But guess what?⠀He snapped.⠀“What?” I asked, pain already stored in my heart.⠀“I failed the game, dummy,” he replied.⠀“I thought you liked me,” I asked, out of rage.⠀“Why would you think that?”⠀“I have a girlfriend. Girl, wake up. I am in a relationship.”⠀Then why play games with me?⠀“Because you were easy to toy with.”⠀I was dumbstruck. My tears could no longer hide themselves. They stayed back, so I would not really look like the weak dummy.⠀That night, I stared deep into his eyes. Usual, yet something was different.⠀Something I had never seen before...or maybe I did, but ignored it, because when the heart loves something, the eyes see it as paradise.⠀That was when it hit me.⠀It was all a game to him.⠀His eyes deceived me, and my heart danced to the tune. 😔⠀I thought I was the best reader of humans, but now it dawned on me.⠀Definitely, the eyes are a step ahead.⠀His eyes were empty. Dark. Cold.⠀ These were the eyes I had looked at for years. For each moment, the stars dimmed, the moon held its breath, as if even they were in awe. These were the same eyes I thought held a thousand untold stories, and I promised myself I would spend forever reading them.⠀It was all an illusion.⠀Then he leaned in and whispered into my ear,⠀“You really thought this was going to work out?”⠀I froze.⠀I screamed.⠀I just wanted someone like me in my life.⠀Why is it so hard?⠀“Do not yell at me like that,” he snapped.⠀“You think I would stay with you?”⠀I yelled back,⠀“Stop yelling at me.”⠀And that was it.⠀I left that night.⠀At home, it felt like I was living in a dream. I asked myself, why am I always the prey? This was not the first time I liked someone and they did not reciprocate.⠀I had three crushes recently, and later I figured out they all had someone close to their heart.⠀So why do I always think they liked me?⠀Finally, the answer crossed my mind.⠀Their eyes. 🥺⠀How?⠀“He stares at me, I think he likes me.”⠀That was always my excuse.⠀I cried that night, but nothing changed the fact that I had been fooled, playing the obsession game.⠀• • • •Years later.⠀“Keeyra!”⠀“What?” I snapped. That was my roommate.⠀“I have a boyfriend!”⠀Wow. I was so happy for her.⠀“Guess what? I saw that guy you told me about, the one you like and think likes you too. He has a girlfriend. I saw them together today.”⠀I froze. Obviously pained, but I was not ready to give in to my emotions.⠀“Oh wow. I never really liked him. I was just joking about liking him,” I replied coyly.⠀“Alright then,” she said, and left the room.⠀History repeated itself again.⠀I sat at my table that night and came to a conclusion.⠀Enough is Enough!!!I researched and realized I am not the only one stuck in this predicament.⠀Yup, let us talk about it. 😚⠀Guess what? I am a survivor. You can survive too.⠀Do you know how many times my heart cried while my eyes just stood there staring?⠀Do you know the worst battle I have ever fought?⠀The battle between what I know and what I feel.(It will be one of your worst battles.)⠀Do you know the worst feeling ever? ⠀Loving someone who does not love you back.⠀My advice for you? Stay single, guys. 🤨🤭Relationship will make you cry. Just kidding though. If you meet the right person, take away.⠀Why are we attracted to people who do not want us?⠀Sometimes we are emotionally unavailable. In my case, once they reciprocate, I lose interest. It is the fact that they do not like me that makes me obsessed. The brain sticks to what it cannot have.⠀You need to know when someone is playing you. Most times, they do not like you but see you as an option.⠀The lesson I learnt: Some days, you need hard days to know who is a passenger in your life.⠀I thought psychology said what you hide in your heart appears in your eyes.⠀I thought real eyes realize real lies.⠀But the heart controls the eyes sometimes.⠀And yes, it really does lie.⠀Him staring at you and being nice does not mean he cares. He could be playing the pity card. Be smart.⠀A cheat code: My grandma always told me to marry someone who loves me more than I love him. Men are easiest to control when they are the ones in love.⠀Someone once asked me, what is worse? ⠀Loving someone you cannot have, or having someone you cannot love? ⠀I said: leaving someone you can never unlove.⠀I really miss the innocence of loving wholeheartedly, without the constant fear of being hurt.⠀So, fix a price. I promised myself never to give my heart to someone who cannot afford it. I never really cared for a crown. I always preferred a sword. Just in case you decide to treat me like a game, trust me to show you how it is played.⠀Guess who I am currently crushing on? 🤭🤪⠀ Ke Ra writes✍🏽

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